Not to save the righteous, but sinners

A tough couple of weeks here.  I got sick after my last swim which was Tuesday, the 16th.  Still congested and have laryngitis.  (My kids are happy I can't yell :)  So when my exercise flagged so did my eating.

I've been going through some emotional stuff which was catalyzed by the same book mentioned last time.  Basically, what can a Christian expect from non-Christian parents?  Are they capable of real love?  Do I have a "right" to feel rejected and inadequate because of the way they treated me?  Being 44 years old now I have to think that all that is past, and it is childish to dwell on things that happened so long ago.

Also there is no way to reconcile with my parents at this point.  My mother has been dead for 32 years, and my father is no longer mentally able to understand.  Looking back I can remember my older siblings having similar feelings at this stage of life.  They confronted our dad, and when there was no heart-felt repentance offered, they turned their backs on him.  

How does all this affect my weight issues?  Should it at all or should I be past it?  Am I looking for someone to blame?  Honestly, I have to say no.  I don't want to blame anyone.  What I'm after is truly knowing myself and what motivates me to think and act the way I do. 

If you have any insights, feel free to leave them here.